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  • lonely ghazal

    With each fleeting message I have sent alone,

    I bear witness to my friends’ each event alone

    The final migration has long since passed,

    The young birds making their ascent alone.

    On strangers in markets, I spot one friend’s voice,

    A second’s beard, a third’s nose bent, alone.

    In the air, a friend’s laments float, crying

    How they’ll put meager coin to rent alone

    On his parting gift, the jacket in my arms, 

    I smell traces of his scent, alone.

    After a few years, will the red strings of

    Fate always be cut? I ponder in resent, alone.

    Shuttered in the confines of house and mountain,

    Strange lines does Felix invent alone.

  • starless sky

    In September, I was already running out of things to write about. In October, I took my internal arguments and forced you to read them. In November, I speedran writing an article. How much do I care? Clearly not enough to make you care.

    Now it’s February. The writer I was is dead. The writer I am is here. He’s better, he’s gotten better. He’s not someone whose work you glance at in a newspaper. You shrug. You toss the newspaper onto the floor and move on with your day. He’s grown from that. He’s better than that. 

    Give him a chance. Let him make his case. Please. 

    Nighttime. You’re sitting on a ledge, where sky, stars, and forest meet. All blurred, all dark.

    I walk up to you. I ask you what’s wrong. 

    You don’t answer. You’re looking down. Your tears touch the trees. I do what you don’t. I look up. And I tell you, it’s okay. This is temporary. It gets better. 

    You stand up. You glance up. You take me by the hand and you say, walk with me. 

    We walk through the woods; we walk under the night. People brush past us. I notice something. A glance. A moment when your eyes meet theirs. A smile. Warm, hopeful. Almost too hopeful. 

    Voices. Soft, almost a whisper. 

    I hear the word temporary. 

    I hear the word okay. 

    I hear the word better. 

    I look back at you. You’ve covered your ears. I think back to a minute ago. 

    I remember the word temporary.

    I remember the word okay. 

    I remember the word better. 

    I wonder, did I talk to you, or did I brush past you?

    I’m shocked I even made it this far. It’s hard to find the motivation to write nowadays. But I’m going to anyways. 

    Time passes; priorities change. Before, I was trying to be better. Now? I’m just trying to feel a bit better. 

    Don’t worry about me. I’m fine. Just read on like you’re supposed to. 

    An open field. We wander through grass. Stars like twinkling beacons dot the sky. They repel darkness.

    You tell me a story. But you only tell me the beginning. Of how you wanted to see the sun rise. You’d do anything to see the sun rise.

    One day you dreamt the stars. A substitute. Your own type of light. 

    Then, you take a deep breath. 

    You close your eyes, you open them. 

    The sky gasps. The stars drop. They pitter-patter on the ground, like little glowing grains of salt. 

    And the whole world goes dark.

    I don’t see you. I don’t see myself. 

    Goodbye to dreams. Dreams shine and sparkle. Dreams make you want. Dreams make you hope. 

    Hello to reality, which hangs over you like a plain night sky. 

    A minute is a mystery. A battle to see. So many minutes lie between night and day. And I wonder, how can you hope to see the sun, when you can’t even see yourself?

    Here’s a question. What happens when I’m done? I type out the last word. I whisk the article off to the editors. What follows?

    Problems don’t get solved. Minutes don’t tick by faster. States of mind don’t lift. It won’t make things better. 

    And yet I’m here. Still trying to write. 

    I’ve changed my mind. I’ve lowered my aspirations a second time. Let’s forget about better and focus on fine. I’m writing this article to try and feel fine. 

    Is that worthwhile? Time will tell. 

    A clock is valuable. It keeps you on track. Gives you eyes. A stride in your step. You know where to walk, you know where you’re headed, you know why you put one foot in front of another, because you know time will end the night. 

    Clocks hang on trees, cradled by the breeze. Hands spin, feet move. Lives continue like normal. 

    We walk to your clock. It doesn’t move with the breeze. The glass face is cracked. The minute hand, frozen at twelve. The hour hand, frozen at twelve. 

    And I wonder, without two feet, how can you put one foot in front of another?

    You won’t look at the other clocks. I ask why. You say it’s painful. Reminders are painful. People on the move. Hands spinning, a stride into the night. 

    Because they think it’s okay.

    They’re convinced it’s temporary.

    They believe somehow, they’ll get better.

    I suggest to you, fix the clock. Get the hands turning. You shake your head.

    Confused. Don’t you want a guide? Some way to tell time? You shake your head.

    Come with me, you say. Let me show you what will happen if the hands turn. If the feet move. If I have to function normally again.

    Is it worth it to write? Worth it to try to write? Worth it to aspire, no matter how low the aspiration? How much do I really care about the writer I am? The person I am? Or am I still just searching for a moment feeling fine?

    Away from the forest. Back to the field. The night ever-present. We speak nothing. We watch as another version of you emerges from the darkness. Navigates the fallen stars. Glances up. There’s nothing else that could drop.

    You pick up a star and suddenly the sky seems so big. You realize from how high up it came. You wanted to put it back.

    You throw it up, it comes down. You jump and hand it off to the sky. The darkness gives it back. You place the star on the ground. You kick it away, so far away it seems eaten by the abyss. Until you realize, it’s still not where it’s supposed to be. You’re just farther away from it. 

    And there’s still so many left.

    You fall to your knees, try to summon some thoughts. Try to let yourself make your case.

    It’s okay. The star you kicked away. You’ll never find it again.

    This is temporary. A life is temporary. You could spend your whole life trying to re-ignite the night.

    Things will get better….

    You crumple. Your tears touch nothing. I turn to the real you, I can barely speak. I whisper, how do you know this will happen? 

    Two, four, six watery eyelids. And you whisper back, I thought you’d have figured it out. I am you. 

    In September, I was fine. In October, I was getting better. In November, I was back to being fine.

    Now it’s February and now I don’t know. But to anyone staring twelve o’ clock, nighttime, a starless sky in the face, to anyone wobbling as they’re trying to put one foot after another, I can’t promise much. All I can promise is that you’re not someone to be looked at in a newspaper for a moment, before the reader throws the paper away. The writer you are went through so many nights. If you’d like, here’s to another.

  • and they throw the matches down into the glitter

    i think we’re lost now, dear, too far gone now, dear,
    so we’ll eat our strait-laces and hit the road, like
    we’re stealing our lives back, like we’re saving them
    in each other. it’s not a robbery, it’s a bona-Clyde
    rescue mission. we’ll tie up the yellow dashed line
    like a ribbon. we’ll present it to whoever comes
    after us, double-knot it so anyone following falls
    straight off and hits their head. it’s cartoon physics,
    love, we never look down when we run, so our
    footprints vanish into clouds. we’ll go out like sea foam
    at sunset, legends fading like our con trail behind us.

  • untitled

    Friend’s DM: “dinner at 5 if we’re both alive?” 

    Meet me by the marina and promise not to miss this

    Would they realize they’re acting as my light?

    What is that doll you put by the peach slices?

    They smirked then told me his name: Platypus 

    Friend’s DM: “dinner at 5 if we’re both alive?”

    Over queso, we played “I Spy” with Pacific sight lines

    My ghost bobbing about, “no air or love since” 

    Would they realize they’re acting as my light?

    We picked our roles after attempt 209

    A wanderer roof-hopping (you), finding (me), your skin

    Friend’s DM: “dinner at 5 if we’re both alive?”

    Twirling three-fingered through tapas, we collide

    Is this a framework, or a foundation of mere bits?

    Would they realize they’re acting as my light?

    A crackling blade engulfs us as we recall what we felt like

    Raggedly, I turn one-eighty, interpreting waves as blips

    Friend’s DM: “dinner at 5 if we’re both alive?”

    Would they realize they’re acting as my light?

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